If You Ever Read This, Please Know...

My dear son, if time could bend

I’d change the things that caused you pain

Undo the words I can’t defend

And make your heart feel whole again

I’d give you love, undivided, true

I’d chase away the hurt and gloom

But I can’t rewrite what’s passed through

I’ll wait for you, my heart consumed

I’m sorry for the pain I’ve caused

It wasn’t for lack of love, you see

But for my battles that left me paused

Please know, you mean the world to me

So, till the day you come my way

Know my love for you will stay

I miss you more than words can say

My son, come home, don’t stay away

I know I caused my son pain-deep, lasting pain. Words I wish I could take back. Actions I can't undo. And no matter how much time passes, that truth weighs on me.

If I could give him anything now, it would be unconditional love, undivided attention, and a heart free of the weight I unknowingly placed on his.

The truth is, I wasn't absent because he wasn't loved. I was lost in my own battles-fighting in silence, surviving without knowing how to truly live. And still, he meant the world to me. He always did.

I wish he could believe how deeply sorry I am. That my distance wasn't rejection, but a reflection of the chaos I was stuck in.

I wish he knew how much he changed my life. How much of my healing is because of him, even in his absence.

So, I wait. I wait for the day he might reach out-if he ever chooses to. And if he does, I'll be here, with nothing but love.

I miss him more than words will ever hold. Please don't stay away forever. My love has always been here. It always will be.